My Vision

Back in my former bedroom, a familiar scene. Lights off, occassional sounds of the vehicles from the main road disturbed the silence.

I closed my eyes and pray. "What is it God? Where should I go?"

I close my eyes tighter, hoping that I can hear His voice. I recalled the vision from Him. Then, I was at a loss - not knowing which course to apply after my Os. Again, I squeezed my eyes, hoping to get a stronger focus.

The sound of the wall fan, the chirps from the birds and the snores from the living room...... Gosh, I'm distracted again. Back to my prayer, I'm almost trying hard not to fall asleep. These days, sleep just doesn't seem to be sufficient.

Age has caught up. Other than the obvious streaks of tiredness, there are also the breakouts from all the late nights and the tough to go, dark circles. Looking at the image staring right across me, I almost cannot remember how I used to look like. I'm constantly having backaches, migraines and increased lack of sleep.

Is this meant to be this way? Am I on the right track? I reminded myself of that faithful night again, of that vision. I took a deep breath and hope to relax. Another one and I'm more confident that the vision couldn't have been more wrong.

I've my administrative experience, and now, operations, and though reluctantly, a little on sales. Another level and I might be there. I wonder though if it is possible. With the economy and now that it has become yet another employer's market, it's even harder to get that opportunity.

But.. if this is God's plan, that Window of Opportunity will arrive. It happened before (quite an easy catch), then again (tough a little tougher with some struggles, a life changing event forced me forward) and now I believe. It will happen. Just like it did before. I've just got to believe, to have faith. To know, it's God and ... the next chapter, I hope, shares a good news to this story.